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Reality, Reflection, Recall: Trauma Unit

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As the GMC Yukon truck hit the left side of my body, my spirit jumped out to the sidewalk to observe. Watching my body hit the ground, laying there in the cute little black outfit from the night before, I thought, "You look sexy... wait a minute, you just started getting sexy...get back in that sexy body!" Spirit jumped back in the body and popped up, got on my bike and said, "I'm going home." Then lightly passed out into a stranger's arms. Coming back to consciousness I was barraged with questions. A lady held my head while a man kept me engaged in consciousness: Man: Do you know your name? Me: Yes Man: What is it? Me: (laying in middle of North Avenue) Is my face all fucked up? Lady: Surprisingly no. Your chin is bleeding (I attempt to lift my arm to touch it). No (pats my arm away). What's your name sweetie? Me: Kathryn McMuffin Man: (Finds my ID and says to the lady) Last name is McPherson. Do you know where you are? Me: North and lunch..

Reality, Reflection, Recall

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(Some names have been changed for the anonymity of the individuals involved.) Told Dick we shouldn’t see each other sexually anymore. I love him and I don’t know why. He’s an idiot and an asshole and amazing all at the same time. Is he really that amazing though? All I can say is that the man makes me wet. If only we spoke the same language of love and life. There is a very strong attraction between us. Something is missing there. He disconnects and then I go into effort trying figure it out. I’m in way too much effort that yields very little results. Or maybe I’m in a false sense of effort that is actually creating more distance because I’m not being direct with my communication. Whenever Dick and I end something we are actually beginning all over again. Thursday, April 25th, 2013 he told me that he was only wanted to see his ex romantically. I was shocked because I thought we were getting together because he was going to tell me he wanted us to exclusive. I stared at him an

When a guy tells you...

(Meant to get this one out before I got hit by a truck at 30mph on my bike) When a guy tells you that his best friend is his ex and that she will always be in his life (no kids together)...stop seeing this guy. He is telling you everything you need to know. This guy is not ready for a new relationship and clings on to the past.  There is nothing wrong with being on good terms with an ex. When the ex still plays such dominant/permanent role in his life (RED FLAG) it really looks bad on the guy. If she became a lesbian it's fine. Should you choose to keep seeing him it will only be a matter of weeks or even days before they get back together. You are the disposable one in the situation. So do yourself a favor and dispose yourself from the situation. Sure he made you laugh, he was sweet, you had a good time and he will want to remain "friends." In reality his sweetness is based in selfishness. Keep in mind this dude most likely collects ex's and goes back in forth